Pride

I was just finishing up a session on the web with Beth Moore. I am currently working on her bible study Believing God. I had an "aha!" moment, one I can not deny. Let me start at the beginning.....

About four years ago, I thought that I was called to do a ministry of Teen Mops. Mops is a group for mothers of young children. I sent off for the necessary materials, I read the information, I went to my local churches and asked for money and volunteers to work on this with me. I was so excited. It failed miserably. There was no one to come. Nothing came of it. I was so deeply embarrassed. I asked God over and over again, "Why?". I thought that He told me to start this program. I began to doubt that I had ever heard His voice.

Fast forward, friends. This program failed because the Lord wanted to sift out my pride. He wanted me to let go of it. I was so excited to be up front, a leader, the voice of God. I was so wrong. Even when I started this blog, it was for the personal accolades that I could accumulate for myself. They are like salve on the wound of insecurity. I have been so wrong.

Thank you, God, for finally leading me to an answer! Thank you for humbling me. I don't ever want to commit the sin of pride again. If I do, please remind me to stop it! May all of the things I do be for Your glory and not my own.

Ps. 32:3
When I kept silent, my bones grew old
Through my groaning all the day long.
For day and night Your hand was heavy upon me;
My vitality was turned into the drought of summer.
I acknowledged my sin to You,
And my iniquity I have not hidden.
I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,"
And You forgave the iniquity of my sin.
Selah.